Before i had Lawson, I was reading James and found great comfort in God's perspective on trials.
Before I had Fletcher, Colossians was where I was and saw God as an amazing Creator and Sustainer of Life.
Before I have Ruthie, I find that the Psalms are such a comfort to me. Over the last couple of days here, I have found that the sweet children that God has given me have been my "refuge." We have discussed this topic many times in Small Group this year and I knew that I did not always go to the Lord for my refuge, but I don't think I could have known that i put such hope in my children without having this
trial opportunity of being away from them. Through many tears, the Pslams have reminded me what a refuge our God is...He has promised that. So while I may not know what's happening, or where i am, or how to speak the language here, my children (even if they were here) would not bring me what I need. I am so thankful that God works through all situations to show us our need to depend on Him. Please pray for me, as while I am realizing this, it is still not easy to just go to Him, as i should, to be my refuge. I'm thankful he is gracious and full of abundant love.
These are my last thoughts before I will have my daughter. If this seems like rambling to you, well, it probably is.
6 comments:
you will treasure this post. Love ya!!
We prayed for you before we fell asleep (couldn't make it past 1). Tammy woke up @ 2:45 with you on her mind and now we're up only imagining what it must be like to finally have her in your arms.
natalie BEAUTIFUL
I love this post. I couldn't sleep last night thinking about you guys. James and I looked at pictures of Ruthie and just can't believe how perfect she is - such a Grubbs! We felt an extra tug at our hearts for her nanny and prayed for her as well. I love knowing that nothing that happens in the next few days will come as a surprise Him. He is your refuge! Gin-Cat
Ahh. I teared up reading it. What wisdom God has granted you in this time -- I can see what you mean and it gives me much to consider as I parent my own gifts today. I love you and am praying constantly for you.
I am so excited for you and I know you are with Ruthie right now! What a wonderful blessing. Just a quick update... I had nursery yesterday and Flecther and I had some one on one time for the first 20 min. He was doing great! My family sends our love and look forward to seeing the Grubbs Family of 5!:)
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